Kou Thao Writing
✦ The Written Word ✦

Why I
Write

"I write because my soul feels restless and the words on the page form a cadence that feels like my heartbeat."

Why I Write

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I write because it's cheaper than therapy.
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I write because I have something to say. I write because I want to say it louder.
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I write because writing feels like my soul is singing.
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I write because my mother cannot. I write because my grandmother could not. I write because my great-grandmother could not.
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I write because I must be a scribe for the wisdom my ancestors carry to me on the wind.
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I write because the pain inside of me can no longer remain buried. And my words may be balm to someone's wounds.
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I write because the mysteries of the Universe are unfolding around me each day.
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I write because the boogeyman is not as scary when you can see him on the page. My pen is my sword.
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I write because I am able to channel light onto barren pages, illuminating the dark.
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I write because my soul feels restless and the words on the page form a cadence that feels like my heartbeat — like I've written these stories 100 times before.
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I write because no one thought Hmong refugees would ever be able to survive in America — let alone thrive.
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I write because Sunisa Lee is a gold medal Olympian and now the world knows who Hmong people are for a positive reason beyond war and violence.
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I write because I want to name my people's trauma, but I don't want it to define us any longer.
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I write because my humanity and liberation is bound with yours.
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I write because one page will someday become pages, bound together to create a spine that will animate and sustain new life.

The
Memoir

Seeking Agent Representation

A memoir in essays telling the story of a queer Hmong shaman growing up in rural America who retraces the wounds of war, on a quest to unlock the secret to healing generations of trauma — all while navigating identity, faith and alcoholism.

Rooted in the Hmong diaspora. Universal in its reach. A book for everyone who has ever inherited a wound they did not choose.

Currently Seeking Agent Representation
The Mystery of Me
Kou B. Thao
MEMOIR · ESSAYS · SEEKING AGENT REPRESENTATION

On the Page

Flower of Life
2024
“Spiritual Waterboarding”
Emerge Lambda Literary Fellow Anthology 2024 · Lambda Literary
Selected for the annual anthology of Lambda Literary’s Emerging Voices Fellowship cohort.
2021
“Mov Ntse Dlej”
What We Hunger For: Refugee and Immigrant Stories about Food and Family · Ed. S. Y. Shin · Minnesota Historical Society Press
An essay exploring food, memory, and the Hmong refugee experience in America.
2016
“Dangerous Questions: Queering Gender in the Hmong Diaspora”
Claiming Place: On the Agency of Hmong Women · Eds. F. Nibbs, C. Vang, M. Vang · University of Minnesota Press
A landmark essay on queer identity within Hmong culture and diaspora.

The Work
Recognized

2026
Finalist · Plentitudes Nonfiction Prize
“Monsters”
2025
Shortlist · CRAFT Memoir Contest
Judged by Roxane Gay · “Monsters”
2025
Finalist · Indiana Review Nonfiction Prize
“Monsters”
2024
Emerging Voices Fellow
PEN America · Mentor: Weike Wang
2023
Emerging LGBTQ+ Summer Fellow
Lambda Literary · Mentor: Meredith Talusan
2022
Next Step Fund Artist Grant
Minnesota Regional Arts Council
2021
Mentor Series Fellowship, CNF
Loft Literary Center · Mentors: Kiese Laymon & Anika Fajardo

Hear the
Words

✦ PEN America Emerging Voices — 2025
Fellowship Closing Reading

This reading celebrated the end of my national PEN America Emerging Voices Fellowship. I am introduced by my mentor, Weike Wang, and read from an excerpt of my memoir in progress.

My reading begins @ 32:28
Watch on YouTube ↗
✦ Lambda Literary Emerging LGBTQ Writers Summer Workshop — 2024
Fellowship Reading

This is an excerpt from my memoir in progress, read at the Lambda Literary Emerging LGBTQ Writers Summer Workshop, 2024. My mentor during the workshop was Meredith Talusan.

Watch on YouTube ↗
✦ Notes from the Edge of the Universe ✦
Cosmic Kou

I write about healing, the quantum realm, the end of the world, and other hot takes that no one asked for. Follow along as I attempt to publish the first queer Hmong memoir in the world.